I had a fortune teller read my future last night. Pretty interesting, I must say. I should've asked more questions ;)

Look at what love has done to me.

I was looking for the definition of the term reality show when I stumbled upon this site and found what I was looking for. According to one of the guys there, below is the correct definition of the term, and I must say, I couldn't agree more with the dude ;)

reality show
ree-AL-i-tee SHOW

A TV show that actually has very little to do with reality, so named just because corporate dumbfucks needed a buzzword to attract attention and they couldn't think of a term that actually fit.

I had a blast of a weekend. My cellphone was turned off the entire weekend and I managed to stay away from the 'net since Friday evening. Last night, before going to bed, I switched my cellphone on and SMSes came flooding in. One particular message told me that yesterday morning, at 9.45 AM, my beloved sister-in-law passed away. She died of breast cancer. I think I should never turn my cell off again. Look what happened the minute I did. Safe journey, Mbak Biempi. I'll miss you.

Soli siamo incompleti, ecco perché si cerca un'altra anima.

A message I got in a fortune chocolate drop during lunch today. It simply means "We are incomplete alone, that is why we seek another kindred spirit".

Are we really, now? I beg to differ.

Jeg savner dig.

I wanna see this dude.

I met up with my best friend for dinner last night. Thanks for the RC, Dee. I needed it.

It is as if you have that special key that only fits a particular heart, and it fits mine.
--Email Fraction, 16 Sept '03

How can I not love you?

Quite a session I had just now, chatting with this asshole here.

jerk: where do you live?
morn1ngdew: I'm in Jakarta, Indonesia
jerk: oh, you mean terrorist land??
morn1ngdew: No
morn1ngdew: That is so judgmental
jerk: no, it is a fact
jerk: Bali
morn1ngdew: FYI, my country is a beautiful country with nice loving people
jerk: muslim militant groups everywhere
morn1ngdew: Yeah, Bali. What about Bosnia, Palestine etc?
morn1ngdew: That is not true
jerk: are you muslim?
morn1ngdew: But this is not the time & place to discuss that
morn1ngdew: Yes, I am Muslim
morn1ngdew: Sorry to disappoint you
jerk: well, acording to the koran I am an infidel christian
morn1ngdew: Sorry, but for your info, I don't judge ppl by their religion
morn1ngdew: And I certainly don't know you well enough to judge who or what you are
morn1ngdew: I have many christian frieds and we get along just fine
jerk: the koran does.. "..make not friend of the jew or the christian, kill them where they may be found"
morn1ngdew: I also have Buddhist & Hindu friends and so far, we have no problem at all
morn1ngdew: THAT IS UNTRUE! You better get your facts straight before spitting out your thoughts.
jerk: There is one god..allah...and muhammed is his prophet"
morn1ngdew: I could give you the direct translation of the Quran which states that Muslims should respect ppl with different beliefs
morn1ngdew: That one is true
jerk: if you do not believe that, you are an infidel
jerk: spitting my thoughts?? how dare you say that
morn1ngdew: Infidel or not, it is not up to any human being to judge
morn1ngdew: And how dare you say that my country is the land of terrorists?
jerk: because your government is corrupt your country has become a safe haven for Al Qaida and other terrorist groups
morn1ngdew: You know what
morn1ngdew: Believe what you want
morn1ngdew: I couldn't care less. May you have a nice life with all those rotten thoughts in your head.

Gather your facts straight before spitting out your thoughts, you moron!

I L Y

Lil Boy: Why are you wearing a jacket?
Me: I don't feel well, honey.
Lil Boy: Then, why are you working? Just stay home.
Me: I have to make money for us, remember?
Lil Boy: Well, if you're sick, you should stay home. I can sell newspapers and Dede can sell cakes. I'll ask Grampa and all our uncles to buy my newspapers and Dede can ask Gramma and all our aunties to buy her cakes. We'll give you the money so you can sleep at home.

--Morning Dialogue between my son and I, 08.05 AM

I just came back from lunch and I am just so sleepy. My body temperature has gone up again and I wish I was at home, sleeping. I think I'll just read some emails. You know, the ones that make me feel all warm inside. And you know I'm talking about your emails.

I feel fully recharged today. That 3 AM phone call did it. My oh my :)

It's late and I'm all alone at work. I'm having fun with my analysis, with all the tellies turned off and everyone else gone. A sudden tingling of deja vu just seeped in. Tonight kinda reminds me of how things were way back in the year 2000, when I would go home real late at night after busting my ass off at work. Those tiring nights have paid off and I know that it is part of the reason why I am here today, doing what I am doing now. Good things come to those who wait, so they say. Maybe they do, especially when you mix them with a pinch of sweet surrender. Well, I'm going off soon and hit the sack with my current read. I couldn't care less with what happens with the rest of the world out there. And you don't have to understand what I'm rambling about. I'm just blurting out stuff, as usual.

Kumohon.

Why is it that when things go right, everything seems to be perfect, but when they go wrong, they all go wrong at the same time? Aaaaaarrrgggghhhhh!

Ssssshhhhh.....

Don't buckle my emotions on a roller-coaster ride. Please.

It's raining outside. I'm gonna go home early, put the kids to sleep, open the window and let the rain kill my insomnia. And as for you, I miss you.

I'm chatting with my very best friend who now lives in Paris. I miss you, Erwin. Wish you were online more. It's okay, though. December's just around the corner. We'll have fun when you come home :)

It rained last night and I slept like a baby. I woke up at 5 and opened the window to find the streets and roofs all wet. A sudden feeling of serenity swept over me and I realized that my insomnia is slowly fading away. I think I know why. Thank you.

Are you a segment in a dream, or have you become a piece of my reality?

I miss someone far far away. I wonder if he misses me, too.

I went out with the crew of this show last night. Man, it was hilarious! The IT guy from this place just opened a restaurant and wanted us to try out the food. The food was good, the jokes hilarious. I exchanged crazy British bantering with one of the girls who also grew up in England. I tell you, by the time I got home, my jaws hurt and I had tummy cramps from too much laughing.

I hope somebody's not sleepless in Seattle.

This dude finally made it to Kompas. Grab today's edition, open page 12, and you'll see this researcher friend of mine who also believes that toys do come alive at midnight. Good job, Rob, I'm proud of you.

Do you know how it feels like, to be standing at the center of the universe and having all the rays of the sun shining down on you? Well, that is how I feel this morning. I feel as if I'm standing on a firm point. And of course, when you stand on a firm point, you should be able to move the Earth. At least, that's what Archimedes once said :)

This week still consists of tomorrow and Friday. I wonder what those two days will bring. I already know what Monday will bring ;)

Today is a goona be a good day. I can feel it!

Updated at 6.43 PM:
Yesssss! It indeed is a good day. Something happened just now and boy am I ecstatic! I need to stop myself from smiling ;)

It's been a long time since I last went to the cinema. Need to catch a good movie soon. I need the break.

A scenario. Read on.

A while back, I wanted something, real bad. At the time I wanted it, it wasn't possible for me to obtain it. I stepped back and made peace, thinking that everything has its time, has its own course. Days and weeks passed by and now, that 'something' is being offered to me. At a time when I am already comfortable with all that I have.

What should I do? Try to reach for the rainbow and make all my dreams come true, or simply be happy with what I have now and carry on with life as if nothing happened?

Someone, who I've admired from afar all this time, is finally coming over. Welcome aboard, you! ;)

I drove myself home from work last weekend. It rained really hard that day and I was caught in nasty traffic. But all was cool, I actually enjoyed it. It's been almost a year since the last time I sat behind the wheel and drove. I'm getting used to the idea of having a driver to take me places. Need to drive some more, though, even if I have to share the road with all the other idiots out there.

I found Mr Williams!!! He replied to my email, thanks to a friend from BBC. But, I also heard some bad news. Mr Grist died a few years ago at the age of 76. Safe journey, Sir. Too bad you went before I had the chance to come and see you.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire with me
and not shrink back...

--The Invitation, Oriah Mountain Dreamer

The little girl loved reading story books. Father and Mother have always taught her to love her books and toys. Her favourite author when she was little was Enid Blyton. Up to this day she still cherishes her childhood books, some still stashed on her bookshelf. Enid's books have taught her one thing that she still believes in up to this very day and will pass on to her children; that toys come alive at midnight :) The little girl always took good care of her toys and teddies. She would never leave them out on the floor lying around, to be trampled on. Her teddies are always lined up neatly on her bed and she wondered whether they would wait for her to sleep, before creeping out of her room to play with the other toys in the living room. The little girl learned a very valuable lesson from one of her Enid Blyton books. It's about a little girl named Biddy, who accidentally left her teddy in the back garden.

It rained hard that night and the teddy was soaking wet and sneezing badly when two brownies who happened to pass by found him. They took him to their tree and dried him up. After giving him a cup of hot cocoa, they brought him to the Brownie King. He was very upset to see children treating their toys so carelessly, and demanded Biddy to be brought before him for a good scolding. Now, Biddy was already asleep when she heard the thunder rattle her windowpane that night. She woke up immediately and put on her boots, raincoat and fetched her umbrella. She went to the garden at the back of her house and looked for teddy but of course he was not there. At this moment, the two brownies who were sent to get her saw her and grabbed her by the hand. They took her to their tree and she was brought before the Brownie King. He was very angry and scolded her until she cried. She tried to explain that it was an accident, that she left teddy out in the garden. She also said that she loves her toys very much and said that she wouldn't be going out in the rain at night to get him if she didn't. The Brownie King then ordered the two brownies to go fetch all of Biddy's toys for a hearing. After a few minutes, Biddy was surprised to see all of her toys march in; her golden-haired doll, her blue bunny rabbit, the toy soldiers, her big grey elephant, also her little sailor doll and golliwog. They had been told that Biddy was on trial for mistreating them and they had come to save her. The golden-haired doll told the Brownie King about the time she broke her arm. Biddy brought her to the doll hospital and mended her arm right away. The blue bunny rabbit told him of the time he had a hole in his back, causing all the sawdust to come out. Biddy fetched some sand and poured it in him, before seweing the hole up. The little toy soldiers told him how carefully Biddy was with them, always putting them back into their box after playing with them. See, they are very small and they break easily if someone stepped on them. The big grey elephant also came forward to tell the King that Biddy only allows one child to sit on his back when playing with him. She will not allow more than one person on his back, in case he breaks. The sailor doll also said that Biddy saved all of her pocket money to buy him a sail for his boat. The golliwog wanted to add something, too, so he told the King about how Biddy also saved her pocket money to buy him some new black woolen hair. By the end of this long explanation, the King sat in his throne and let out a sigh of relief. He asked Biddy to forgive him for his misjudgement and ordered the brownies to take Biddy and her toys home. Biddy sat in silence, tears of joy streaming down her cheeks. She didn't know her toys loved her that much. Just as she was wiping her tears, her teddy walked in with a shawl around his neck. He heard that Biddy was on trial and wanted so much to give her a hug. He ran up to her and hugged her feet, for he was small and could only reach her feet.

--Faerie Land Episodes, episode 14

Dedicated especially to a friend who also believes that toys do come alive at midnight. Roby, this one is for you. Hope you enjoyed it.

I am available and looking. Do you have a problem with that?

I'm ill. I'm eating porridge at my desk and my body has gone feverish. Wish I could go home, but these papers need to be read and approved. Hhhh...

Our transmissions are back to its normal ass-kicking function. The share reports today confirmed that. Yippeeeeeeee!

Last night I went to QB to meet this lady here for a session of chit-chat. The plan to just chat, turned out to be a crazy book-shopping spree that both of us did not plan to do. I broke my own promise to stop buying more books before I finish the pile on my bedside table. This book caught my eyes the minute I entered and I knew I had to buy it. I also bought an old classic, written by this fine lady here, as a pressie for my 'lil angel. Oh well, so much for wanting to save.

Last weekend I received a text email with the size of 19k. It indeed is, by far, the longest email I've received since the first time I hooked up on this electronic mail service. And for you who sent me the email, I think you're still asleep at the time I'm posting this entry. Well, I hope you are.

I feel all warm and fuzzy. Zzzzzzzzz :)

It's almost 1.30 and I am alone at my desk. The guys have gone out for lunch and I just don't have the energy to go anywhere. Here I am, sitting at my desk, staring up at the ceiling, thinking of a million things and my thoughts wander off to a place at the other end of the globe. A place with a 6-hour time difference. I wish I could turn back time.

Ooh, and it's all right
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied...

--Why Don't You & I, Santana featuring Chad Kroeger

I want to get my hands on this film. Anybody know how I can obtain it?

To some people out there, we are just merely strangers.

5.20 AM Saturday morning, the kids and I were picked up by my friend and her hubby and daughter. We went tea-walking, horse-riding and ate strawberries. It was good and I know the kids had tremendous fun.

Yesterday, one of my good friends asked me out to lunch and coffee. He was to return home to Bali after completing his Jakarta project. He left on the 9 o'clock flight last night. A very nice fellow and indeed a good friend, also another living proof that cute programmers do exist :) I'll surely let you know if I ever come to Bali. You can bet on that!